I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well.
My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they were all written, The days fashioned for me
When as yet there were none of them.
How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How great is the sum of them!
If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand;
When I awake, I am still with You."
Yesterday sitting in church after tearing up during almost every song, I heard these words that gave me great peace about today and any appointment coming up about Joy. Our pastor said that Truth (the Bible) releases us from fears and superstitions, allows us to live with confidence, gives us strength when we are tested, and stabilizes our faith. He said much more that I couldn't write down fast enough but overall it was hugely encouraging to me. Instead of staying up late last night trying to find more information about Joy's issues, (which is what I've done almost every day for a week,) I looked at this part of my favorite Psalm and thought, Yeah, I believe that. What am I worried about? That God isn't paying attention? That He messed up while He was making her? Maybe that He forgot about her? None of that is the Truth.
And I know that. I know that God is real and alive and well. That will not change over time or our circumstances. Forgive the sloppy quote but as C.S. Lewis said, "Because of what I have seen, I will trust the Creator for what I have not yet seen."
Our appt. is at 12:30 and I will update as soon as I can to share what we learned. Thank you so much for praying for our little girl! Emmy, sorry about the "Ain't."