Last night, while listening to a CD of hymns made for babies I cried for the first time. Not in my life but for the first time because of the last few weeks. I am trained to tell other people to grieve/feel what they are feeling because it is healthy and beneficial and yet I didn't realize I needed to do it myself. Until I heard those words that have given people comfort for hundreds of years and I recalled specific times when the hymns helped me with all kinds of things. Losing friends, my first real heartache, confusing times during college, the list goes on. He never failed me before and during this time of waiting and fear for my child, He has never felt far from me. I am so thankful.
I'll write more soon--for now I'm gonna unpack the bag...again :)